Denial.
No, it is not a river, but rather the state I am in right now. You may be thinking of my last post, in which I was lamenting our imminent move. But that is not it. Not the idea of the move itself--it is the move-"ing" of stuff, as in clean, sort, pack, load, camp out for a few weeks, unload, unpack, wonder why I brought this crap, clean again, sort again, settle part that I am in denial about. Oh, and in between (during the camping phase), we find the actual place in which we unload said stuff. I am merely hesitating to start that crazy process.
And, while I have your attention, it must be said that while part of me is sad to leave such a lovely place, I am finally in a position to be OK with the move. In fact, better than OK: good. I know, I know, but this past week has been a huge eye-opener for me. I spent the week attending a course on the philosophy of yoga. Let me tell you, it is not what you imagine! It was absolutely amazing. While not going nuts on the subject, even though I am tempted, I will say that my faith in my faith has grown exponentially while learning about yoga as the non-sectarian spiritual practice that it truly is. I learned the proper definitions of words that, through the "dumbing-down" of Eastern spirituality, have become so convoluted that almost everyone I know has got them wrong. I was one of those people, but no more!
At the very least, this experience will enhance my yoga teaching when I return to that venue. But even better, it has strengthened my relationship with Jesus Christ and my resolve to follow His example and do His work. Weird, huh? Who knew?! All this time, we thought yoga was just really great exercising and breathing, right? There is more to it than that! I knew there was a deeper level to yoga--it would be hard to practice for any length of time and not pick up on that somehow. But the fact that it is possible (and even necessary) to embrace the spiritual aspects of yoga in my quest to return from whence I came is incredible. Amazing. Wonderful. Crazy. Stupefying. Exciting!
So, off I go to the mainland. Whatever happens, happens. I am just going with it because it is ridiculous to not. I mean, why spend all that energy and thought on something I cannot and do not want to change? I can only change my reaction to the move to a response. Here it is: Bring it on, universe. I've got my head on straight. Finally.
p.s. thanks, Mom, for the photo!
2 comments:
About the move "ing" thing:It IS all good. Really. I have a friend who has lived in the same house for 25 years, and you should see all the "stuff" she has never had the opportunity to ponder over! Whew! Visiting her is a lot like visiting your grandma was, if you follow. Oh, and I'm glad you liked the picture. It is one of my favorites from the trip. : )
I'm glad you are in a good place with it all. Can't wait for more details on the class; it sounds amazing.
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